I try going deeper, but I make no headway.

What’s your point? You’re a Philosopher. How much deeper do you want to go?

By now I should understand more than this. Thoughts aren't enough. Ideas aren't enough. The mind, the self, God is not enough. All the names of things are wrong, and the Nameless does not survive inspection. My back hurts too.

You’re a Philosopher; that won’t change. You’ll always be seduced by the next Deep Thingie. It’s like having a non-removable mole.

I may as well be howling at the moon.

The arguments would be more sound. Anyway, as popular as such notions have become, you’ve known for years that the ultimate state of things doesn't depend on what’s going through your mind. That's good to know, eh? So get on with it.